So there I was

So there I was... balls deep.  A phrase non-chalantly said by many, but too often said without meaning.  Now, this little gem of a proverb could be taken in a few ways.  Two feelings tend to come into my mind with this statement. Pure joy, e.g. feeling the deep penetration in a supple woman, and fear, e.g. being in a small room filling with water or sinking in quick sand and feeling the substance of your death creeping up on the balls.  The possibility is there to feel both at once.  I think both emotions are going on for me right now.


My college career of boozing and academics is winding down. For those of you kids out there who haven't experienced it yet, don't let the propoganda get you down.  College is a wild time for partying and experimenting, testing the different shoes and hats you might wear someday, and also getting the education that no one will every be able to strip you of (unless of course you get expelled, like the idiots I know who projected porn on the side of their dorm room building).  But also, and more importantly, don't become that idiot that shoots himself in the face on the anti-marijuana campaign ads. Please, don't buy the propoganda, but also don't become a epitaph for the propoganda to live by.  Get close to the bear, but don't wrestle it. Just moderate yourself, sleep around but always wear a condom, get old tests to cheat off of, study with friends, get a tutor, go to class unless so incredibly hungover it is physically impossible, hell, go to class drunk if you have to, always get your excericise, eat as often as possible, meet everyone, don't underestimate anyone and try your hardest to go above and beyond and all of the above.  Most importantly, put everything off until the last minute because there is always something better to do. When the real world comes along you'll have to meet deadlines more appropriately anyway, live in the now of college life.  Have fun kids.


Now that I've given my aging balls-about-to-graduate pitch, the latter part of my rant is where I'm at now.  The part about the real world and stuff happening.  College was a great time for idiocy and laughs, maybe a bit of learning, but now "real" life is coming on full steam like baby ready to pop after the water has broken.  The joy of it all ending is immense inside of me, I can't wait for it to be over, yet the fear I won't complete the projects I have going on and the ominous reality and independence facing me in the changing tide have me down a bit.  Balls deep man.  I am a religous person, that great energy and force called God has to be doing something with me, but I feel like I'm in the eye of the hurricane about to be tossed again. This is the part I didn't warn y'all about kids and the part for which I have no advice.


With that being said, its all gravy.  Everything will unfold as it should and things that are written can be unwritten, if you catch my drift.   Science.  That is a word.  It speaks so boldly and intimidates people.  Its the process of doing things and learning about them.  Simple and objective, a process, but intimidating.   Scientists are demigods with self fulfilling prophecies.  It scares me and I am a scientist, what about that.  It should frighten you a bit too.  While scientists, as a community, are supposed to have an ethic that strives for objectivity, reasearchers and genius minds around the world try to impose a certain assimilated view upon the facts they observe.   Sometimes it is impossible for them to overcome dependence on their readin glasses.  Like all people, actors in the science realm are often telling you what they want to hear, unless of course they are truly good at what they do.  


Global warming for example.  The panel for climate change would want you to believe its all our fault.  Al Gore, way to go with your schmoozing and convincing portrayal of one viewpoint.  Has anyone else noticed that the global warming term is out a bit, and climate change is more in?   A few years ago the facts seemed so convincing that we termed it warming, but now its just change.  I've always had the bias that the world is always changing, and earth is in a natural cycle of change that we may be accelerating a bit but not drastically altering.  However, I think its funny others might be jumping on this boat too.  Anyway, its funny to me how hard this was pushed as solid fact and now its questioned a bit.  Thats the uneasy feeling I have about science, theories are pushed and questioned and the people involved get so caught up in it trying to justify themselves and their answers.


Science is good but dangerous and we're always seeking justification.  Makes me wonder if I chose the right profession and if I will be able to draw the right lines.  There is this heated buzz word in modern science, "Advocacy."  Advocacy is an issue we all face really, and it can become dangerous when we advocate for something too strongly.  Its like that saying, "religion can hurt more people than it saves," think about the holy wars.  Anyway, advocacy in science is a personal issue that may create questionable science. 


Science by nature is an objective observational practice as I mentioned before.  If science is based more on opinion and emotion by the advocation of an outcome or state, it may become biased and unrealistic.  It is important to understand that the role of modern professionals within the science fields is limited, and that the influence and impact on society created by an individual or organization is constrained by the results produced in scientific studies.  It seems an ethical responsibility taken when working with natural things and facts to make decisions based on concrete science, but often this isnt the case.  Decisions made at a personal level may not reflect benefit for the greater whole. Think stem-cells.  I'll admit I've been out of the loop on this one for a while, but I think it was a great thing for people in medicine that got shot down because of conservative beliefs.   If science proved it was a good thing, why should it have been shot down.   People readily accept pace makers when their heart doesn't tick right, accept organ and blood transplants, get lasik, all this has stood the test of science and is accepted, why did we throw out stem-cells!


Comprehension of advocacy provides a theoretical shield for a person.  If you understand objective, logical thinking and advocay you can defend yourself from the absurd by being able to discern opinion and fact and thinking for yourself.  That is the new revolution, thinking for yourself.  And also, don't sell yourself short, but don't oversell yourself.  Don't be an advocate or you might find yourself naked and in a cage painted like a cat, rabbit, ocelot, seal, squirrel, rabbit, owl, hoodoo, hootenanny and whatchyamacallit.  Think PETA, obviously.  Well, think I'm gonna wind this one down.  I feel that old weasel on my back and I gotta run, but I'm not letting it get me too paranoid.

Kung fu and chop suey,
now that sounds like a good oriental night.

Before the Beginning...

There was a lack of ideas.  Man had not existed and ceased to exist at the same time.  It is funny we think of time in a linear fashion when everything really happens all at once.  We describe it with threes, sixes, nines and twelves, but what happens and will happen has already has occured in one lump sum of existence. That's one way to think of it s'pose, one angle to look through the slats in the fence.  Anyway, humans at least get the chance to progress through life, a linear thing, and build up the definition of who and what we are; all the while trying to place ourselves somewhere in the bigger picture of the universe and existence.

We need to get beyond that weasel of reality parading around in the masquerade of life and understand things and events and why they went down the way they did.   Don't let the weasely ways of the world get you down! Go far out, turn on, tune in and tune out, live and love my friends!  By creating this blog I wish to document my efforts in life, to progress and learn and not forget the important things which are even the small things.  Warning: this is not based on solid philosophy, I will describe obscure, mundane earthly things, my friends, randomness, thoughts on objects and products, but try to flavor it with the spice of insight and comedy that will hopefully provide the author and reader with greater depth and enjoyment of our slice of life.  So hot damn, lets get beyond the weasel!

Thanks for reading,
and if you don't know the difference between your scrotum and fried chicken,
you probably shouldn't